CONFUSION

innosence like a kid
The glow is so white ,feels like a midst
From there rose an angel with a grin
Eyes so nice,nowhere to be seen
"You are a jerk" is what she said
The soul within filled with hate
Is it me or the moment?
I really didn't know what she meant
Mysteries and uncertainities filled my thoughts
Confusion from her is what i bought
I feel guilty everytime i go to past
I really hope this pain does not last
Those precious moments when u reacted
Seems now so brilliantly acted
You sounded so different
Hope ur thought are not so bent
In the end of the day its me who will repent
For coming so close to you ,when u went...
Thought that i would stop here
But ur thoughts drags me near
To write bout u seems so easy
As thoughts of u makes me messy
My vocabs bar my thoughts
I can try , but today ....i will not

scattered notes from my diary
mood: nostalgic

As the butterfly screams throught the midst of the night
The clattering sound of the black horse riding knight
Afraid , i dont know where to run
Hope its my dream , but am supposed to have none
This insomnia that clinges my body
Those sleepy nights when i cant control my mind
So i look at my pulsating veins with an unstoppable desire to cut it...........