LEVEL

Somebody's trust turned into dust,
Somebody's friendship has got some rust.
The sufferers will have to make it level
By letting them suffer in the same level.

Many were betrayed.
So many has cried and for their belongings they have craved.
The sufferers will have to make it level
By letting them suffer in the same level.

Don't leave them;
Don't help them;
Don't make them feel strong,
Wait for your turn when you make them feel what they had done wrong.

You are living in a realistic world.
So if acting God is what you tried
and failed,
Then punish them by taking evil's side.

Imagination

I live with my imagination not with my action,
Dreaming with lights blue and green
As I live silently without existence with nowhere to be seen .
Heading life with imagination without any need in reality.
Day and night , days after days repeatedly.

I can travel through any land and can do anything.
I shift from character to character and I can be a king
I am Jonathan Livingstone seagull with those beautiful wings
I am a superhero and in a band i sing.

Within a split second interval i can travel many miles,
I can get lost in my room with nowhere to hide
I can push away god and take evil's side.

RAGE

Do what I say , act in my way .
Don't do this, do this in my way.
Why do people always say ?
It's my life and am responsible for it .
Leave me alone , I won't hold you responsible .
You break my character , my personality; when i want to improve.
You break my character, my personality; when i want to experiment.
I am happy with myself, I don't need your help.
And don't get panicked ,I won't let you down.
Am a sensible man with sensible passionate thoughts.
Let me do what i do best and let me work according to my plan.

Rage and blockage in front me wont make me stop,
Rage and blockage in front me will make me weak.
So for those who care for me, understand my words carefully,
" I am not mad , but am mad at you "

IT (my song)
skin is deep
its a sheep
drink a nip
in a ship
take a sip

dont panic

oh shit
just a bit
its no meat
made of wheat
dont be a cheat
spray the "hit"
                                   where is the kit
                                   eating meat
                                   oh please sit
                                    the room is lit
                                   sweater is knit
                                    in a pit
                                    on a lift

                                   thats it

OLD
am older by 100 days , am stuck from all the ways
my skin is dry and shedding the flakes
hair is falling , skin is white
day by day am losing my sight
am only 24 and i feel this way
have i learned and experienced before my age ?
or is it the maturity of hopelessness
or am i just scared and want to retire from life

addicted to good times i wander about in search of fun
then i abandon the place and people when am done
i think this is not right like the thousand other things that i have done wrong

to forget all these from memory i sing my song
without any meaning of words just with rhythm and sound
just like my life , without a meaning or reason
all set up and ready for the coming season
dont think about me much .....are you improved ?

Sick Society

ego is social status
ignorance is social respect
killing is a social power
terrorism is a social threat
money is the social love
poverty is the social curse
sex is the social beauty
religion is the social bar
politics is the social war
career is a social symbol
economy is the social hope
maiden are the social disdain
all because sociaty is a social pain

LAW
Am no one , no identity, no character
I am a pushover without any response
Running away and pushing away responsibility
Others are fed up with me
Am a failure in what I do for I expect for others to do it for me
Repeating mistakes over and over again
Pushing things to the limit until they break
I need a suicide for a lesson
A getaway vehicle to throw me out of this dream into the ocean of pain

I make them cry , I make them laugh
I unwillingly hurt them because am the Satan
Killing me is in the Law .

- Hard Sun

When I walk beside her

I am the better man

when i look to leave her

I always stagger back again

Once I built an ivory tower

so I could worship from above

when I climb down to be set free

she took me in again

There’s a big

a big hard sun

beating on the big people

in the big hard world

When she comes to greet me

she is mercy at my feet

I see her inner charm

she just throws it back at me

Once I dug an early grave

to find a better land

she just smiled and laughed at me

and took her rules back again

Once I stood to lose her

and I saw what i had done

bowed down and threw away the hours

of her garden and her sun

So I tried to want her

I turned to see her weep

40 days and 40 nights

and its still coming down on me

(eddie vedder)

5o' clock its 5 o clock, i want to play i go outside i run on my way ; met a girl who is beautiful everyday i see her , but am a fool coz i cant ask her out but in my heart i have no doubt that i like her. i smiled at her showing all my teeth she thought am a demon from a myth . i ran away from her for i don't want to scare her . i ran hard and reached the ground but what i heard was a terrible sound ; the ground was seized they are making a mall i cant play there and its guarded with wall . i got so sad and restless that i started to sweat i felt my neck , oh ! its so wet . suddenly i came to my senses , it was just a dream falling on my eyes was the bright sun beam . how did i fall asleep in the day and now its 5 o clock, i want to play.

ALONE

get away move away let me be !!!
forget about others don't do 'we' 'we' 'we' .
move along, break the barriers
shoot through your own aim
piercing limitations .

i die alone after am born;
don't rest on others ..they will all be gone
you will survive , survive alone .

wild with passion with your shield of selfishness
you will be thrown into the war of social awareness,
drag your feet through those parasitic thoughts
you must avoid those dingy mean plots .

you will win when you know you are left alone
alive with pleasure og truth with nothing to mourn .

FREEDOM

Freedom to sing , freedom to cry .

Freedom for defeat when there is no way to try .

Freedom to hurry with nothing to worry ,

I want freedom from my country.

I want to run in the middle

As an invisible being ,

Nothing can stop me

I can penetrate anything !!

I need freedom to think ;

Think beyond , beyond everything !!

You just have to do 'clap clap' with me

To get all these magical things.

So come forward along with me

All you angelic human beings .

I need help from all you people

to set us free ....

SELFISH

I want to love, my baby
I want to see , her eyes
I want to feel , feel the chill
I want to act this wise .
Coz everybody is against me
And am just as selfish as you
You know how to help others
Coz you are selfish too .

Go go go go away I don't need you
So so so so what you say ? you love me too ?

Confusing words and the weird thoughts
They never can cheat you coz you don't know about what.
In the end its all mechanical
And all the things end as physical .
So is there something like love ?
Or is it the need of your chemicals ???...my love

QUESTION
Questioned for the safety,

Questioned for the knowledge,

Questioned for depth;

And when my heart wept

To give those answers,

Behind the thick walls of uncertainty

A small prisoned boy saw light.

So now he can shake off his fright .

CONFUSION

innosence like a kid
The glow is so white ,feels like a midst
From there rose an angel with a grin
Eyes so nice,nowhere to be seen
"You are a jerk" is what she said
The soul within filled with hate
Is it me or the moment?
I really didn't know what she meant
Mysteries and uncertainities filled my thoughts
Confusion from her is what i bought
I feel guilty everytime i go to past
I really hope this pain does not last
Those precious moments when u reacted
Seems now so brilliantly acted
You sounded so different
Hope ur thought are not so bent
In the end of the day its me who will repent
For coming so close to you ,when u went...
Thought that i would stop here
But ur thoughts drags me near
To write bout u seems so easy
As thoughts of u makes me messy
My vocabs bar my thoughts
I can try , but today ....i will not

scattered notes from my diary
mood: nostalgic

As the butterfly screams throught the midst of the night
The clattering sound of the black horse riding knight
Afraid , i dont know where to run
Hope its my dream , but am supposed to have none
This insomnia that clinges my body
Those sleepy nights when i cant control my mind
So i look at my pulsating veins with an unstoppable desire to cut it...........